May 5 2009

But You Don’t Look Fat: Tales of the Overweight.

One of my biggest problems with anyone hearing that I’m low carbing and NOW PSMF‘ing is that they think I’m being ridiculous.

“But you don’t look fat! Eat a piece of cake and relax.”

Fatty McFat Elon and his understanding G/F - Oct. 2006

Fatty McFat Elon and his understanding G/F I have to be around 260. - Oct. 2006

This phrase is probably one of the main reasons I allowed my weight to go as crazy as it did. No one would flat out say “You’re fat.” I mean, yes, I DO have eyes so I should have been able to see for myself,  but it’s very hard to look at yourself realistically. Who wants to say “Yup, I’m a big fat ass.” But guess what? I was a big fat ass. I’m not thin now! But do you know how many people tell me I am? They tell me I look great!

I mean, I am adorable, but still. I’m 25 pounds overweight40 POUNDS OVER WEIGHT! (According to the stupid healthy male weight that you can google and find on a few hundred websites. I’m still shooting for 190 and when I reach it I’ll tell all those sites to suck it ;) )

I have a larger build. This is true.  But I don’t believe everyones skewed vision of my size is due to the fact that I just wear fat so fabulously. It’s because in today’s America, we don’t know what fat is anymore.

In a land where so many people are overweight, some being ridiculously gigantic, the idea of whats heavy and

Elon silently juding you. 225 Pounds April 1st, 2009.
Elon silently juding you. 225 Pounds April 1st, 2009.

whats not has changed. It hasn’t really changed when it comes to our health, but its changed when it comes to the perception of what’s healthy.  Currently I’m at 214  pounds and I can’t tell you how many people think that I’m fine now. I don’t need to lose any weight at ALL.

But some people said that about me when I was 252 pounds. A good friend of mine said he didn’t know I was fat until I wasn’t fat.  Upon comparing old me to new me he stood in amazement.

And thats whats going to happen AGAIN when I drop down to 190.

When I was fresh out of H.S. I was living on my own and had a brand new job that was paying me pretty well for an 18 year old kid. I remember when i first moved up to about 196 one of my co-workers made a joke I was getting fat. Everyone said she was nuts, I was just really thin before so I was finally filling out.  BUT SHE WAS RIGHT.  One of my friends Mom noticed i gained a few pounds around the same time.  I dropped the weight, through sheer luck cause I surely wasn’t trying and my friends mom said “You look so much healthier.”

She was also a Doctor.

I remember mentioning this to people and everyone thought she was nuts. Don’t pay any attention to her, they said. You looked and look great, they said.  Dear lord, why did I ever listen to them.

Dr. Eades (I know you were wondering when I would figure out a way to bring up my favorite low carb Dr. Well here ya go) wrote about how people often miscalculate how fat they are by FAR. I think not only do we miscalculate how fat we are but also how fat OTHERS are. Most times its just not nice to say someone is fat. I don’t know why, but its apart of our societies way of dealing. I think it may be in fact be our fatal flaw (besides hating people for ridiculous reasons, destorying the environment, not being better versed in our government, damn I could go on for a while) We need to acknowledge obesity outside of the 10 o’clock news segment where they show fat asses and say “The epidemic is rising!” We’re fat! You know fat people! Don’t try to make them feel better about their bodies. If they ask tell them the truth.

And for the love of God be honest with yourself. If you know you have a high fat percentage and that you are IN FACT overweight for your size, don’t wait for someone to tell you. YOU KNOW IT. Deal with it.

I’m overweight (I went from obese to overweight according to the BMI calculator.) I know it.   I will do everything in my power to not be. I bought a scale that tells me my fat percentage. If I’m overweight and 12 percent body fat, I’ll totally be fine with it THEN. If I’m overweight at 27 percent body fat (As I am now) SOMETHING MUST BE DONE.

And thats all I have to say about that.


May 5 2009

Water Weight: TERMINATED! (as if my name was Christian Bale)

psmfPSMF – DAY 2 Stats

Weight: 214.0 pounds
Body Fat: 27.5%

Well I wasn’t quite expecting this.

On my first full day on PSMF I went from 219.4 to 214.0. Wowwee.  I knew I had packed on some water weight but in the back of my mind I was freaking out thinking it was actually some fat. I know that I’ve been watching the carbs, like HARDCORE, and as Dr. Michael R. Eades says (Yes, I quote Dr. Eades all the time. No, he’s NOT paying me – Although I need to try to make that happen) most people can enjoy a caloric surplus while low carbing and gain nothing. They won’t lose weight, but certainly won’t gain. I was enjoying my share of food when I went up 5 pounds and I’ve been taught by society that eating bacon and steak weill make me fat. Even if all the studying I’ve done in the past few months says otherwise, this concept is deep rooted in my psyche. I have moments of fear. I’m doing something stupid, I think.

But then the scale and my body tells me otherwise.

I’m not expecting any more big jumps like that.  As I said in an earlier post, I had weighed in at 214 about a week ago and didn’t believe it. Thought it was dehydration.  Lo and behold, after drinking a gallon of water yesterday I’m back to 214. I feel good about it.  Today at 11am the only thing I’ve ingested are my suppliments which include:

Fish Oil
Multi Vitamin
Fiber Pills
EC Stack
Sesamin
Tonalin CLA

I will fully admit that I’m not sure all of these things are necessary. The Sesamin and Tonalin are simply because I’ve heard a lot of good things about them So I’m trying it. THe multi-vitamin, fiber, and fish oil are very helpful when doing something so protein heavy. The EC Stack is to give me a bit of a boost.  Energy and Appetite suppression helps a big deal when doing something like this. I do fear that it might interfere somehow so I plan to do a little more research to find out but as of now, I’m not hungry and I’m alert. Awesome things in my book.  I gotta say, if for nothing else, I’m appreciative of this PSMF because it’s showed me that my 214 weight wasn’t a fluke. COUNT IT.

So as of now? I’m not going to cut anyone…still. I’m amazed.